Night Was Coming ...
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 11:03 PM
The sky looked beautiful today . With the way the moon and clouds played peekaboo with me .
And then I sat there in the cold whispering songs to myself
I'm like - "I wish you were here!"
Of course you've probably seen the way the sun hits a certain point
And combos of orange pink and blue
A little purple and maybe even a tinyy bit of green
Simply blend together and grace the coming of night
But like .
idk
Rambling?
I just wondered if being in the cold with me, admiring the sky
And the coming of night ...
Whispers of verses that don't belong to me
We'd share something special
Like would you see the world like i see it ?
Or would I discover that you already do ?
Yo .
Life is Beautiful.
And then I sat there in the cold whispering songs to myself
I'm like - "I wish you were here!"
Of course you've probably seen the way the sun hits a certain point
And combos of orange pink and blue
A little purple and maybe even a tinyy bit of green
Simply blend together and grace the coming of night
But like .
idk
Rambling?
I just wondered if being in the cold with me, admiring the sky
And the coming of night ...
Whispers of verses that don't belong to me
We'd share something special
Like would you see the world like i see it ?
Or would I discover that you already do ?
Yo .
Life is Beautiful.
Back to School Speech
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 9:53 PM
Saika Bince
English 12 PSS
Period 4
Back to School Speech
Welcome, new faces, to the School For Legal Studies! Although its not evident during your first days of nervousness, shyness, loneliness and/or eagerness- you’re about to have the time of your life! Grand Street Campus (GSC for short) has a lot to offer you: Art, band, dance, fashion, sports, student government, and (my personal favorite) chorus! Welcome to a school that offers you opportunity to discover, express, and excel on so many levels. Yes, it’s a new school, new faces, basically a whole new ball game than you’re used to. (Do not let these negative thoughts overcome you.) Get excited! You’re about to start a new chapter in your book of life. You’re about to begin a new journey of growth, with the chance to sit in my position three years later and reflect on that growth. However, its up to YOU to seize that opportunity.
So, am I saying that high school is all smiles and hugs? No! (Even though you should share a smile and a hug as often as you can!) Realistically, you will cry at least twice. You will experience relationship drama. Some unexpected event will expose you to who your true friends are. Some teacher may make you hate what was once a favorite subject of yours. You will say “Miss! I lost my homework,” and you may fail a test or two. That’s High School! That’s Life! Of course we’d rather go through happy times and often wish these hard times never existed. I’ve learned though, that without these hard times, we wouldn’t be where or who we are today. Its like riding a bike. No one gets on a bike for the first time and pops a wheelie! You try, and you fall. No matter how many times one may fall, there’s a drive- a determination behind learning to ride a bike. Because of that drive, you are now able to hop on a two wheeler and race your friends right? Yes, there may be a scratch on your knee from that time you fell down really hard. But I bet now, when you look at it, you smile.
I cant say I’ve had the best years of high school or that I’ve fully applied myself these past years. I’ve cut class, skipped school, practically never did homework and hated taking notes. In all honesty, as a student- I suck! All because I’ve lived most of my life fearing my potential and refusing to fully apply myself. Even with singing. As you grow to know me, one of the first things you will learn is that music is my life’s passion. You’d think that being a singer since I was 5- I’d own the confidence to share my talent with others. But no. Like many other areas in my life, I struggle with the fear of not living up to the greatness often expected of me. (I think many of you may be able to relate to that.) So, I shy away from most forms of spotlight. With age comes wisdom though. Hannah Montana once sang, “Life’s what you make it, so lets make it rock!” Don’t wait till near the end to make it rock like I’ve done. There’s so many things I wish I would’ve done differently- however I don’t regret any of the choices made to create the young lady you see before you today. My fear of never being good enough once caused me to crawl into my shell and cry about the world demanding too much. Now look at me. Saika Thee Incredible. I can do anything I put my mind to; and on most days, I want to do EVERYTHING!
All in all- if you don’t make the team, its ok. If you didn’t get the boy/girl, you wont die. Eating school lunch isn’t lame if you’re hungry, and popularity is over rated. “Do onto others as you would have them do onto you.” Smile! Be polite to school officials as well as your peers. Most importantly, don’t be afraid to keep trying. Know that its ok to fall, as long as you keep getting back up. Eventually you will be riding that bike, getting your diploma and racing the world. We need you, the best of you. As President Barak Obama stared in his back to school speech- 9/8/2009 Arlington, VA. “When you quit, you are not only quitting yourself, you’re quitting on your country.”
English 12 PSS
Period 4
Back to School Speech
Welcome, new faces, to the School For Legal Studies! Although its not evident during your first days of nervousness, shyness, loneliness and/or eagerness- you’re about to have the time of your life! Grand Street Campus (GSC for short) has a lot to offer you: Art, band, dance, fashion, sports, student government, and (my personal favorite) chorus! Welcome to a school that offers you opportunity to discover, express, and excel on so many levels. Yes, it’s a new school, new faces, basically a whole new ball game than you’re used to. (Do not let these negative thoughts overcome you.) Get excited! You’re about to start a new chapter in your book of life. You’re about to begin a new journey of growth, with the chance to sit in my position three years later and reflect on that growth. However, its up to YOU to seize that opportunity.
So, am I saying that high school is all smiles and hugs? No! (Even though you should share a smile and a hug as often as you can!) Realistically, you will cry at least twice. You will experience relationship drama. Some unexpected event will expose you to who your true friends are. Some teacher may make you hate what was once a favorite subject of yours. You will say “Miss! I lost my homework,” and you may fail a test or two. That’s High School! That’s Life! Of course we’d rather go through happy times and often wish these hard times never existed. I’ve learned though, that without these hard times, we wouldn’t be where or who we are today. Its like riding a bike. No one gets on a bike for the first time and pops a wheelie! You try, and you fall. No matter how many times one may fall, there’s a drive- a determination behind learning to ride a bike. Because of that drive, you are now able to hop on a two wheeler and race your friends right? Yes, there may be a scratch on your knee from that time you fell down really hard. But I bet now, when you look at it, you smile.
I cant say I’ve had the best years of high school or that I’ve fully applied myself these past years. I’ve cut class, skipped school, practically never did homework and hated taking notes. In all honesty, as a student- I suck! All because I’ve lived most of my life fearing my potential and refusing to fully apply myself. Even with singing. As you grow to know me, one of the first things you will learn is that music is my life’s passion. You’d think that being a singer since I was 5- I’d own the confidence to share my talent with others. But no. Like many other areas in my life, I struggle with the fear of not living up to the greatness often expected of me. (I think many of you may be able to relate to that.) So, I shy away from most forms of spotlight. With age comes wisdom though. Hannah Montana once sang, “Life’s what you make it, so lets make it rock!” Don’t wait till near the end to make it rock like I’ve done. There’s so many things I wish I would’ve done differently- however I don’t regret any of the choices made to create the young lady you see before you today. My fear of never being good enough once caused me to crawl into my shell and cry about the world demanding too much. Now look at me. Saika Thee Incredible. I can do anything I put my mind to; and on most days, I want to do EVERYTHING!
All in all- if you don’t make the team, its ok. If you didn’t get the boy/girl, you wont die. Eating school lunch isn’t lame if you’re hungry, and popularity is over rated. “Do onto others as you would have them do onto you.” Smile! Be polite to school officials as well as your peers. Most importantly, don’t be afraid to keep trying. Know that its ok to fall, as long as you keep getting back up. Eventually you will be riding that bike, getting your diploma and racing the world. We need you, the best of you. As President Barak Obama stared in his back to school speech- 9/8/2009 Arlington, VA. “When you quit, you are not only quitting yourself, you’re quitting on your country.”
Melody by Kate Earl
Sunday, September 20, 2009 11:58 AM
check that song out =]
"honey, take my headphones and lets make magic. a beautiful sing-a-long, & I'll memorize your every lyric." ♥JHR .
•• HighSchool Musical!
Fact // I always said my last year of highschool would be like HighSchool Musical. & I was right
So in total - I've gotten 9 kids to join chorus. The magnificent thing about it is that they all show up to 10th period. Which ends at 4:26* -- so you know it brings my heart joy to see that the dedication is there. Then, Thursday; after choir rehearsal was over with, we randomly broke out in song. Singing and harmonizing music of our past performances. It was so HSM! Lol. Ms. King recorded it, so maybe soon I can get it on here for my readers.
Friday!
Yo. From sun up to sun down and as the night began to fade into a new morning- singsinspongebobvoice* the best day everrr! Lol. Wait- scratch that "sun up" part, because my morning started with meanness =\ doctors took my blood. Like it belongs to them or something -_-
But then when I got to school, I was on errand runs for the office. Had about 20 programs to give out. And about 10 of them had chorus on it 8) . Then the next period, we had our first senior meeting. (I'm the class photographer). Ad in dance I didnt stop/complain. I kept up with the steps and did a decent job =]
I also got to hang out with my new little sister -Jazmine (my freshman buddy or the year?) Got to know her a bit. &in the process- something really amazing (to me atleast) happened. Remember that freshman girl who was eating her lunch in the staircase by herself and I thought she spoke no English but it turned out she was jamaican and just didnt like to talk? Well, she stopped me and hugged me. Which made me feel good because she knew to consider me a friend. Then she showed me this project she had to do, and needed help with. And asked ME to help her! Lol. That realllllyy made me feel good yo. Idk why but it did :)
After school was our football teams first home game. Go Wolves!! You know we k i c k e d a s s on that field! Beat Magrady 22-0! And Mo caught this illlll interception! I nearly fainted! Lol. Even though I'm mad at him for letting some wana be replacement best friend wear his jersey (half joking//) *rollsEyes; any who!
Halima came to the game. And it was really awesome to see her. Even though I got a bit emotional because I didn't feel she was excited to see me. To be honest, I expected it to go like that- with the way it felt like our friendship was fading. But the reality of it still hurt? Idk. Still it was wonderful to see her! And as usual, we waited HOURS for those damn boys to come out the locker room. (why do they take so long just to come out smelling like boy??) Then we went to eat. Halima and I harassed Therno for his love like old times lol. And then we were gona get on the train to go spend hours to get ready for the party later.
Then Kenyatta scared the crap out of us :(. But no details on that. Ily Yatta.
So we got to the party at like- 11:30. Therno came! Everyone was shocked lol. For those who didn't know- I'm going to marry Thern and then take his virginity lol (he is very strict on religion &he can have up to 4 wives but only wants one. Who wouldn't want to marry him?! ♥ lol) But yeah, so the whole night basically, we sat together. But he was mad at me cuz i wouldn't dance with him IDONTDANCE *sings; iknowyucan! Lol. And then every time someone asked him why he wasn't dancing, he pointed to me. Which made me feel bad! Lol it was like that couple that goes to a party and the boyfriend has a horrible time because of the girlfriend? But he danced once! So yeah lol. & He badically let Ro rape me . 3 times! (yo! These new dances!? Its like sex with clothes on! Wtf) blah blahthen we left like 3 something.
I was barely wearing clothes AND. MY MAKEUP WAS SUPER CUTE BTW! lol. And despite Therno "not talking" to me, he pulled me in to warm me up and we sat there till the train came. The only words he spoke to me were "Still cold?" smh c[=
got home at like 4:30 &knocked out! Then got woken up at 9 to help prepare for the lil sis bday celebration!
• halima came (our great time spent made up for Friday lol)
• yatta came! You know my mom was feening -_-
• all my cousins asked for Derek and refused to believe we broke up ugh =\
• middle school has changed since my day! My lord. The things these girls (my sisters friends) were telling me lol.
I'm done! My thumbs hurt.
Typed this on the ipod* lol
--&ily. x__MG
•• HighSchool Musical!
Fact // I always said my last year of highschool would be like HighSchool Musical. & I was right
So in total - I've gotten 9 kids to join chorus. The magnificent thing about it is that they all show up to 10th period. Which ends at 4:26* -- so you know it brings my heart joy to see that the dedication is there. Then, Thursday; after choir rehearsal was over with, we randomly broke out in song. Singing and harmonizing music of our past performances. It was so HSM! Lol. Ms. King recorded it, so maybe soon I can get it on here for my readers.
Friday!
Yo. From sun up to sun down and as the night began to fade into a new morning- singsinspongebobvoice* the best day everrr! Lol. Wait- scratch that "sun up" part, because my morning started with meanness =\ doctors took my blood. Like it belongs to them or something -_-
But then when I got to school, I was on errand runs for the office. Had about 20 programs to give out. And about 10 of them had chorus on it 8) . Then the next period, we had our first senior meeting. (I'm the class photographer). Ad in dance I didnt stop/complain. I kept up with the steps and did a decent job =]
I also got to hang out with my new little sister -Jazmine (my freshman buddy or the year?) Got to know her a bit. &in the process- something really amazing (to me atleast) happened. Remember that freshman girl who was eating her lunch in the staircase by herself and I thought she spoke no English but it turned out she was jamaican and just didnt like to talk? Well, she stopped me and hugged me. Which made me feel good because she knew to consider me a friend. Then she showed me this project she had to do, and needed help with. And asked ME to help her! Lol. That realllllyy made me feel good yo. Idk why but it did :)
After school was our football teams first home game. Go Wolves!! You know we k i c k e d a s s on that field! Beat Magrady 22-0! And Mo caught this illlll interception! I nearly fainted! Lol. Even though I'm mad at him for letting some wana be replacement best friend wear his jersey (half joking//) *rollsEyes; any who!
Halima came to the game. And it was really awesome to see her. Even though I got a bit emotional because I didn't feel she was excited to see me. To be honest, I expected it to go like that- with the way it felt like our friendship was fading. But the reality of it still hurt? Idk. Still it was wonderful to see her! And as usual, we waited HOURS for those damn boys to come out the locker room. (why do they take so long just to come out smelling like boy??) Then we went to eat. Halima and I harassed Therno for his love like old times lol. And then we were gona get on the train to go spend hours to get ready for the party later.
Then Kenyatta scared the crap out of us :(. But no details on that. Ily Yatta.
So we got to the party at like- 11:30. Therno came! Everyone was shocked lol. For those who didn't know- I'm going to marry Thern and then take his virginity lol (he is very strict on religion &he can have up to 4 wives but only wants one. Who wouldn't want to marry him?! ♥ lol) But yeah, so the whole night basically, we sat together. But he was mad at me cuz i wouldn't dance with him IDONTDANCE *sings; iknowyucan! Lol. And then every time someone asked him why he wasn't dancing, he pointed to me. Which made me feel bad! Lol it was like that couple that goes to a party and the boyfriend has a horrible time because of the girlfriend? But he danced once! So yeah lol. & He badically let Ro rape me . 3 times! (yo! These new dances!? Its like sex with clothes on! Wtf) blah blahthen we left like 3 something.
I was barely wearing clothes AND. MY MAKEUP WAS SUPER CUTE BTW! lol. And despite Therno "not talking" to me, he pulled me in to warm me up and we sat there till the train came. The only words he spoke to me were "Still cold?" smh c[=
got home at like 4:30 &knocked out! Then got woken up at 9 to help prepare for the lil sis bday celebration!
• halima came (our great time spent made up for Friday lol)
• yatta came! You know my mom was feening -_-
• all my cousins asked for Derek and refused to believe we broke up ugh =\
• middle school has changed since my day! My lord. The things these girls (my sisters friends) were telling me lol.
I'm done! My thumbs hurt.
Typed this on the ipod* lol
--&ily. x__MG
School Excitement !
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 11:44 AM
Fact // The actual time right now is 11:45 . I'm starting this blog while in lab lol.
Random Ramblings 101
Yes Miles, I stole. lol just tweaked the title a bit =]
- Welcome to the Official first week of school! I say official because when we start late in the week, no one really comes to school until the first Monday. But yeah! Did I mention I absolutely love this year?
- The art teacher requested that I get placed in her class [despite its fullness]. Chorus was added to my schedule - 10th pd. so yes, now my schedule is long* But its ok! because I wake up to art and sleep to beautifully arranged harmonies. It works!
- Before I came to this class, one of the guidance counselors for the underclassman called me into her office. She wants me to be a buddy to one of the new freshman's. This is truly an honor! Like, I'm glad my leadership role in this school is being put to use. I meet the young lady next period! I'm gona get her to join chorus! lol
- Last night I received the course catalog from Full Sail University aka my officialdreamschool. Later on today is my introductory interview. Sim in nervous and excited! I tend to get my thoughts out in jumbles when I'm nervous though. So we'll see how this works.
- Also! adding on to the whole me being a student mentor? i guess? // Its funny because JUST before i ran into Ms.Williams, I was in my English PSS [Public Speaking and Speech] class. And our homework was to draft a Welcome Speech to the freshman! so yay me! I actually get to put my welcome to use.
-- Even though i feel this year i have been doing a very good job at welcoming the new kids. Like yesterday, I was headed down into the lunchroom to pick up some of the underclassman [i got 7 kids to join chorus!]. And on my way down, i saw this freshman eating her lunch on the stairs. just her by herself. It made me feel some kind of way.
Like, i never sat by myself or was isolated. so i stayed for a bit to talk to her. I realized she barely speaks English. I think she's Jamaican. But she doesn't like the school she said. =/
- But yes! Tonight is my Full Sail interview. Also later, I'm headed to my job *coffcoff*workingLady!hehe // I guess Yatta and I have to do a basic training & observation kinda thing? So I'm hoping this doesn't take ling because my interview is at 5 .
- What else have I to share?
OH !
- I'm interning ! wooh ! wait - did i mention that in a previous blog? I don't think so. uhm yah. I got an internship at concert booking agency ! Soul Center NYC =] yay me!
So I'm going to leave this for now. Make edits when i get home & update / write a part 2 . Telling you all how the interview went and such.
RANDOM // OH MY GOD ! lol . the guy at the sprint store this weekend? SOOO HOT! Agh !
And what's up with all these really cool guys I'm meeting? Like, everyone seems to be stepping up their game with this whole "Be yourself" concept. I like, i like. --> all that to say : I think I have a new crush ? blah ! g2g !
--&ily. x__MG
Random Ramblings 101
Yes Miles, I stole. lol just tweaked the title a bit =]
- Welcome to the Official first week of school! I say official because when we start late in the week, no one really comes to school until the first Monday. But yeah! Did I mention I absolutely love this year?
- The art teacher requested that I get placed in her class [despite its fullness]. Chorus was added to my schedule - 10th pd. so yes, now my schedule is long* But its ok! because I wake up to art and sleep to beautifully arranged harmonies. It works!
- Before I came to this class, one of the guidance counselors for the underclassman called me into her office. She wants me to be a buddy to one of the new freshman's. This is truly an honor! Like, I'm glad my leadership role in this school is being put to use. I meet the young lady next period! I'm gona get her to join chorus! lol
- Last night I received the course catalog from Full Sail University aka my officialdreamschool. Later on today is my introductory interview. Sim in nervous and excited! I tend to get my thoughts out in jumbles when I'm nervous though. So we'll see how this works.
- Also! adding on to the whole me being a student mentor? i guess? // Its funny because JUST before i ran into Ms.Williams, I was in my English PSS [Public Speaking and Speech] class. And our homework was to draft a Welcome Speech to the freshman! so yay me! I actually get to put my welcome to use.
-- Even though i feel this year i have been doing a very good job at welcoming the new kids. Like yesterday, I was headed down into the lunchroom to pick up some of the underclassman [i got 7 kids to join chorus!]. And on my way down, i saw this freshman eating her lunch on the stairs. just her by herself. It made me feel some kind of way.
Like, i never sat by myself or was isolated. so i stayed for a bit to talk to her. I realized she barely speaks English. I think she's Jamaican. But she doesn't like the school she said. =/
- But yes! Tonight is my Full Sail interview. Also later, I'm headed to my job *coffcoff*workingLady!hehe // I guess Yatta and I have to do a basic training & observation kinda thing? So I'm hoping this doesn't take ling because my interview is at 5 .
- What else have I to share?
OH !
- I'm interning ! wooh ! wait - did i mention that in a previous blog? I don't think so. uhm yah. I got an internship at concert booking agency ! Soul Center NYC =] yay me!
So I'm going to leave this for now. Make edits when i get home & update / write a part 2 . Telling you all how the interview went and such.
RANDOM // OH MY GOD ! lol . the guy at the sprint store this weekend? SOOO HOT! Agh !
And what's up with all these really cool guys I'm meeting? Like, everyone seems to be stepping up their game with this whole "Be yourself" concept. I like, i like. --> all that to say : I think I have a new crush ? blah ! g2g !
--&ily. x__MG
Measure 13
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 7:18 PM
Fact // this is my 13th blog. [boring fact, I know! don't judge me>_<]
First Day of School
*I will be honest in saying I'm not hyper as I'm blogging right now. So yeahh ... [=/] However, I will type out the random bits I jotted as my day went along. Explanation There is no music on my schedule and I cant seem to fix that at the moment. No chorus, No band. Wtf
MY SCHEDULE
Period 3 ------------------------------------- Spanish Term 3
Period 4 --- English 12 PSS [Public Speaking & Speech]
Period 5 --------------------------- Environmental Science
Period 6 ------------------------------------------------ Health
Period 7 --------------------------------------------------- Gym
Period 8 ------------------------------------------------- Dance
Period 9 ------------------------------------------------- Lunch
From The NoteBook of ....
- I start 3rd! 9 : 40 yo! wooh! So they obviously said "We want to give her all the time she needs to look good and get to school on time" (: random//iShould start adding cute lil smilies on here!
- NOChorus?! wahhhhh?? It seems the people in charge of the music department don't want us to have a chorus this year. There is no longer any 4th or 6th pd Chorus class, and no Music Theory 8th. they only offer chorus !0th; as an after school. Which generally means we have no chorus. Last year it was hard recruiting people BECAUSE they couldn't get it the times offered and didn't want to stay till 10th. so how is this going to work?? I'm really sad yo.
- Ms. Sackie asked about my blog! hehe. That really made me feel good, considering shes like THE GREATEST TEACHER EVERRRR! But yeah, I was in her class 2nd [since I obviously had no class] &it reminded me how excited she makes you about school. Like, shes just dope!
- Speaking of DOPE teachers!!! I need to get Art on my schedule [which would require me starting 2nd instead of 3rd.] But if I don't have something creative in my day - I will* d i e . And we don't want that! lol
--- Unfortunately the 2nd pd Art class is full -_- so I have to check back Monday? whats really going on here yo??
- Aside from no chorus during the day, this is the positive year I planned.
So whats the deal with Spanish 3? plain and simple, they want me to take the regents. I've only had Spanish 1. and barely went to that. So we'll just have to see how that works out. I'm thinking of requesting it as an independent study and take the French regents at another school instead. Because that whole 3rd pd Spanish thing conflicts with my plans for being in band.
L♥VE English PSS! Ms. Muhammed is a professional public speaker and poet. I think her passion is inspiring people. [that's my new thing now; figuring out what people are passionate about lol] but yo! She's just so lively! I see this class benefiting me & my shyness with speaking publicly.
&Already, first day of school- there was a fight. shame*
THEN IT HIT ME!!! i don't have math?! totally fcked my mood. We all know how much I love math, but it turns out I have all of my math credits. But I'm like- I need it if they making me go for advanced regents diploma. I have to take the math B regents for that. So yeahhh ???
And my last note on my day; after school was cool. Chilled with the boys &ate!
Then Jackie [who I consider to be one of the prettiest girls of our class] shocked me by asking if I was running for prom queen. lol. I'm like "ehhh I thought you were running soo.... and I'm not a fan of losing." haha. But she thinks I should run and says she doesnt want to lose either, it would ruin her night. So since I've decided I'm going [the dress I designed is too cute for me to not go to prom!] Saika Bince for Prom Queen?
--&ily. x__MG
First Day of School
*I will be honest in saying I'm not hyper as I'm blogging right now. So yeahh ... [=/] However, I will type out the random bits I jotted as my day went along. Explanation There is no music on my schedule and I cant seem to fix that at the moment. No chorus, No band. Wtf
Period 3 ------------------------------------- Spanish Term 3
Period 4 --- English 12 PSS [Public Speaking & Speech]
Period 5 --------------------------- Environmental Science
Period 6 ------------------------------------------------ Health
Period 7 --------------------------------------------------- Gym
Period 8 ------------------------------------------------- Dance
Period 9 ------------------------------------------------- Lunch
From The NoteBook of ....
- I start 3rd! 9 : 40 yo! wooh! So they obviously said "We want to give her all the time she needs to look good and get to school on time" (: random//iShould start adding cute lil smilies on here!
- NOChorus?! wahhhhh?? It seems the people in charge of the music department don't want us to have a chorus this year. There is no longer any 4th or 6th pd Chorus class, and no Music Theory 8th. they only offer chorus !0th; as an after school. Which generally means we have no chorus. Last year it was hard recruiting people BECAUSE they couldn't get it the times offered and didn't want to stay till 10th. so how is this going to work?? I'm really sad yo.
- Ms. Sackie asked about my blog! hehe. That really made me feel good, considering shes like THE GREATEST TEACHER EVERRRR! But yeah, I was in her class 2nd [since I obviously had no class] &it reminded me how excited she makes you about school. Like, shes just dope!
- Speaking of DOPE teachers!!! I need to get Art on my schedule [which would require me starting 2nd instead of 3rd.] But if I don't have something creative in my day - I will* d i e . And we don't want that! lol
--- Unfortunately the 2nd pd Art class is full -_- so I have to check back Monday? whats really going on here yo??
- Aside from no chorus during the day, this is the positive year I planned.
So whats the deal with Spanish 3? plain and simple, they want me to take the regents. I've only had Spanish 1. and barely went to that. So we'll just have to see how that works out. I'm thinking of requesting it as an independent study and take the French regents at another school instead. Because that whole 3rd pd Spanish thing conflicts with my plans for being in band.
L♥VE English PSS! Ms. Muhammed is a professional public speaker and poet. I think her passion is inspiring people. [that's my new thing now; figuring out what people are passionate about lol] but yo! She's just so lively! I see this class benefiting me & my shyness with speaking publicly.
&Already, first day of school- there was a fight. shame*
THEN IT HIT ME!!! i don't have math?! totally fcked my mood. We all know how much I love math, but it turns out I have all of my math credits. But I'm like- I need it if they making me go for advanced regents diploma. I have to take the math B regents for that. So yeahhh ???
And my last note on my day; after school was cool. Chilled with the boys &ate!
Then Jackie [who I consider to be one of the prettiest girls of our class] shocked me by asking if I was running for prom queen. lol. I'm like "ehhh I thought you were running soo.... and I'm not a fan of losing." haha. But she thinks I should run and says she doesnt want to lose either, it would ruin her night. So since I've decided I'm going [the dress I designed is too cute for me to not go to prom!] Saika Bince for Prom Queen?
--&ily. x__MG
August Rush
Thursday, September 3, 2009 10:59 PM
Fact // today was the first day I've seen this movie and I'm overwhelmed with emotion as I type right now. This is a truly remarkable movie and you can imagine the tears I've shed through watching it. All the pieces composed brought a tear to my eyes. I'm in love. point blank.
Music is Me
A combination of sounds from around the world
Destined to outlast eternity
Music is Me.
The only thing that seperates us are pretty piano chords
Even then,
The combination of Do Me So in C
Or Do Me So in the key of D
Provides an understanding
To all of the worlds problems.
The difference in a major or minor chord
Emphasizing
"If its loving that you want,
Then you should make me your girl."
Or the warm feel
Of the cool rain
As it falls
To meet the hot tears
On your stained face...
More than just a hug
And a "Awe! It'll be alright!"
More than just secrets kept
By walls surrounding two souls
Becoming one in night
Even more than just a tank that holds life
On a trip to the moon
Music is Me.
I am that tune
That leaves you sighing heavy
Humming your way through classes
I am that beat -
With your headphones blasting
As you drown out the world
Your heart beats faster
Trampling over eachother in a race
To catch my rhythm
I am that voice
The one that seems to reach out
touch you
Saying, "I understand"
I understand crying out to darkness
Failing to be consoled by parts caressed by hands where they shouldn't be
Paired with whispers of
"Shhhh,
Its only gona hurt a little..."
And I know
Its hard to be Incredible,
To be Superman, Spiderman, Batman
- Or even just Robin
Feels like you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders
Its not that heavy
Until you`re told your letting everyone down
Even yourself....
But its alright.
I know what its like to be a superhero
Rejected
By the world you once saved
Or worse
Rejected
By yourself
Can't find the stregnth to be your own hero?
Trust me, I know.
Because Music is Me.
Remember that time
You didn`t want to cry over that boy
You turned to me and allowed Lyrics
To express your feelings
To speak to you,
Speak for you
Dont forget those moments
Where you shut out the world
You just lost a friend
You just lost yourself ...
Push everyone away
Reject your lifes reality
Where drunken fathers turn to knights
I am there
The melody in your heart
Harmony to your soul
The beat to your steps
As you journey through la vie
I am there.
I will always be there.
Because Music is Me.
---
The story behind this? Well for the last quater of school, we had an option to either read another play or write a slam poem. [Random// as I type this blog I'm listening to the Soundtrack of August Rush] I decided to write a slam poem because I assumed it would be easy for me. Boy was I wrong! You see, when I decided to write a poem instead of reading, I forgot my use of writing to express bottled up emotion. The writing part didn't scare me. It was the fact that I would have to perform it in front of my class. I kept trying to find ways to get out of writing the poem and for a while I didn't even know what to write about. At this time I was struggling with my issue of feeling OK with expressing something deep within me. Whatever that may be. But my teacher wouldn't let me switch to the poem.
I was on the train headed to school with my SK in hand. I'm not sure what was playing on my ipod. But I looked around me, at the different people on the train. As usual, I was trying to imagine what's their story. then I questioned- well, whats MY story? and then I started typing away. That is what I got.
After watching this movie for the first time, my head was spinning, the tears were flowing, I was [once again] bubbling with passion. I set my away expressing these things and a boy hit me up, asking why I was crying. I explained that when I witness passion for music, as strong as my own; if not stronger - I get very emotional. After a brief conversation, he asked me to describe myself in one word.
I bet you thought I said INCREDIBLE
But no. I shocked even myself when I automatically typed a word other that incredible. But the word didn't surprise me.
m u s i c
random// August's Rhapsody may just become the most played song on my iTunes.
--&ily. x__MG
"Sometimes the world tries to knock it out of you. But I believe in music the way some people believe in fairy tales..." -- August Rush
Music is Me
A combination of sounds from around the world
Destined to outlast eternity
Music is Me.
The only thing that seperates us are pretty piano chords
Even then,
The combination of Do Me So in C
Or Do Me So in the key of D
Provides an understanding
To all of the worlds problems.
The difference in a major or minor chord
Emphasizing
"If its loving that you want,
Then you should make me your girl."
Or the warm feel
Of the cool rain
As it falls
To meet the hot tears
On your stained face...
More than just a hug
And a "Awe! It'll be alright!"
More than just secrets kept
By walls surrounding two souls
Becoming one in night
Even more than just a tank that holds life
On a trip to the moon
Music is Me.
I am that tune
That leaves you sighing heavy
Humming your way through classes
I am that beat -
With your headphones blasting
As you drown out the world
Your heart beats faster
Trampling over eachother in a race
To catch my rhythm
I am that voice
The one that seems to reach out
touch you
Saying, "I understand"
I understand crying out to darkness
Failing to be consoled by parts caressed by hands where they shouldn't be
Paired with whispers of
"Shhhh,
Its only gona hurt a little..."
And I know
Its hard to be Incredible,
To be Superman, Spiderman, Batman
- Or even just Robin
Feels like you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders
Its not that heavy
Until you`re told your letting everyone down
Even yourself....
But its alright.
I know what its like to be a superhero
Rejected
By the world you once saved
Or worse
Rejected
By yourself
Can't find the stregnth to be your own hero?
Trust me, I know.
Because Music is Me.
Remember that time
You didn`t want to cry over that boy
You turned to me and allowed Lyrics
To express your feelings
To speak to you,
Speak for you
Dont forget those moments
Where you shut out the world
You just lost a friend
You just lost yourself ...
Push everyone away
Reject your lifes reality
Where drunken fathers turn to knights
I am there
The melody in your heart
Harmony to your soul
The beat to your steps
As you journey through la vie
I am there.
I will always be there.
Because Music is Me.
---
The story behind this? Well for the last quater of school, we had an option to either read another play or write a slam poem. [Random// as I type this blog I'm listening to the Soundtrack of August Rush] I decided to write a slam poem because I assumed it would be easy for me. Boy was I wrong! You see, when I decided to write a poem instead of reading, I forgot my use of writing to express bottled up emotion. The writing part didn't scare me. It was the fact that I would have to perform it in front of my class. I kept trying to find ways to get out of writing the poem and for a while I didn't even know what to write about. At this time I was struggling with my issue of feeling OK with expressing something deep within me. Whatever that may be. But my teacher wouldn't let me switch to the poem.
I was on the train headed to school with my SK in hand. I'm not sure what was playing on my ipod. But I looked around me, at the different people on the train. As usual, I was trying to imagine what's their story. then I questioned- well, whats MY story? and then I started typing away. That is what I got.
After watching this movie for the first time, my head was spinning, the tears were flowing, I was [once again] bubbling with passion. I set my away expressing these things and a boy hit me up, asking why I was crying. I explained that when I witness passion for music, as strong as my own; if not stronger - I get very emotional. After a brief conversation, he asked me to describe myself in one word.
But no. I shocked even myself when I automatically typed a word other that incredible. But the word didn't surprise me.
random// August's Rhapsody may just become the most played song on my iTunes.
--&ily. x__MG
"Sometimes the world tries to knock it out of you. But I believe in music the way some people believe in fairy tales..." -- August Rush
Our Time Is Here
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 7:35 PM
Fact // found on the CampRock Soundtrack. iWant to go to a cool camp like that! lol. But for me, this song represents the end of summer- but the beginning of something greater. "Gone are the days of summer, and we couldn't change them if we tried. But why would we wana? Lets go where we gota- our paths will cross again in time." So here's a toast to the past & kiss for the future . Really?aSenior!?
Wow.
That's the best way to express it all iThink. Wow. Honestly, just sitting here trying to put thoughts together for this blog as my "Smash Into You" play-list [the best play-list on my ipod right now]- runs, I'm getting watery eyed.
You never truly notice your growth as a person until a random moment. Like sitting on your bed and noticing the posters on the wall; they've been up for 3 years. Or cleaning out your bookshelf and finding old notebooks. I'm like "look how my writing was!" And reading my old journal entries. Finding old projects... [thehappytearsarefallingnow]
iGrew up so much over the past 3 years. Its amazing. I'm no longer that cynicaljerk// now im a suckerforlove That's one of the biggest change for me iThink, falling in love with Derek Loury. Haha. My dreams never changed though- I'm still heavily in love with music.
Please excuse me if my thoughts are all over the place btw; I'm just in awe.
One of the major changes iHave noticed in me- is that iNo longer victimize myself. iUsed to be that girl; the world expected so much of her. The pressure would drive me crazy. Now that iThink back on it, if iReally tried; iCould have lived up to those expectations. But iGuess my fear of never being good enough always caused me to crawl into my shell &cry about the world demanding too much. Now look at me. Saika Thee Incredible. iCan do anything iPut my mind to, and on most days iWant to do EVERYTHING! lol.
Another amazing thing for me- is this whole "Popularity" thing. iWouldnt have thought about this to add if it weren't for Miles[mystarboy]. We were talking about this the other day. After iTransfered out of John Jay; iOfficially got a fresh start. iWas the new girl. Of course iDrew attention being the new girl. But my personality shutdown and refusal to make friends gave people the opportunity [eventually] to like me for me* first. That was something iNever got the chance to experience. Fact from that? All the people who adored my life in my old school, I'm not even in contact with. except for Tanisha, Britt &Tyrone.
However, this post is really supposed to be about my expectations for the year!
Please Note : iFeel OLD ! lol . well - Grown* hehe . I'm going to be 18 !
Random // When my 17th Bday hit, iSeriously caught panic & emotional attacks . About being scared to grow up; and how all I've been doing is "growing up" - feeling like iNever had a childhood. iMean yeah, iNever played spin the bottle. iNever ate glue. iNever went to a prom &I've probably only been to about 6 [thatsstarboy'sfavenumberlol] parties in my lifetime. But iGot to be the pink power ranger when iWas 6. iFound out the United States didn't have a king, so iCouldnt be a princess. iGot my first kiss in the 7th grade. &iWent through a rebellious phase. So I'm happy with everything my past holds =]
This Year is going to be great! Why? Because isayso!
- The band teacher wants me to join band. So I'll be starting on trumpet and I'm really excited for that! QuincyJones practically CREATED the trumpet!
- Expanding chorus; iWant us to do great things this year. &you're BUGGING if you thought iWasnt running for president again =]
- iSay this like every year... but iNEED to stop being so damn lazy with school work. seriously.
- This year I'm going to apply to all the music colleges iWant to go to. Without fear that iWont get in. Because any school would be lucky* to have me.
- I'm going to be more involved with my classmates. Or try to. [¬onlybecauseallmyfriendsgraduated]
- Boyfriend? Nah. iHonestly don't need such a big distraction this year. Plus, iHave my crush to keep me occupied. &he's not close enough to be a major distraction =] so it works!
All in all, this year is going to be hard work and fun. oh- and when iTake the SATs with a great score to show off, iWill let you all know.
ofcourse I'm afraid that iMay not be as smart as everyone thinks iAm. Like what if iDo horribly? This is one of those tests that show how smart you are right? I'm Usually a good test taker...
Like how iNEVER went to English last year, then got a 72 on the regents [cuz ididnt do 2 essays.] or how iNever paid attention in Spanish [when iActually went] and got a 80 on the final exam? Orrrrr how iNever went to Math and always showed up for a test & got like 90's.
[iGuess you see the pattern of a BAD student last year? smh]
but yeah! iThink I'm done here.
--&ily. x__MG
